Every normal human being is mildly affected by this soft habit. As soon as a routine is cultivated whether intended for the welfare of the perpetrator or otherwise this disease sticks like glue.
Give it attention and it grows. Just like everything else. The trick is not to feed it with attention. Not to engage it with rationalization, conversation, analyzation etc... And of course to give it lots of space, lots of emptyness to come and go. Let it roam freely in your vast awareness, consciously.
Know and acknowledge that this demon has entered. Smile to it but don't believe a word of what it says ... Take it lightly, chuckle and laugh if possible. Treat it like another random thought. Random thoughts can't be controlled but they can be given heaps of room to disolve themselves in. Watch them come and watch them go. Don't even resist them. Whatever we resist, persist.
This mind of ours is not ours. We are not our minds. We are not our thoughts. We are not our compulsive obsessions or die hard habits. We merely chip away each time we notice these demons grip on us. Then these demons soon become our teachers and guide to remind us that we are merely cherishing our ego or self.
Let go a little and have a little peace. Let it go completely and have absolute peace - an all encompassing peace that permeates our entire being.
There is a tibetan practice where a monk goes to the cemetery in the middle of the night and invoke all evil of evil beings to chew, possess or demolish him. He makes himself food and offering to the devil himself - all the while meditating on emptiness, knowing full well that all in the mind and trick and illusions of the mind.
He lets his mind go. He enters into no mind, beyond mind. No past, no future only meditating in the now. Only consciously aware of the present moment. He knows that all is illusion and reality can only be experienced without the mind. He uses his heart and the meditation of silence.
Whether or not the "small still voice" is heard or experienced is irrelevant. He knows then in the stillness of his being, in the centre of his being, the calm, the harmony and the peace pours forth joy and bliss. He experiences compassion for all beings even the devil himself and all his demons as they are mere beings not moving towards goodness yet.
There are no evil in the world. Only those things that have yet to be realised or transformed into goodness. Given the opportunity the devil himself will weep and turn into goodness if he stays too long in the light of universal compassion. Compassion transforms. Joy and bliss overflows from within the beings of open hearts. Heart which are willing to open to be helplessly trusting in existence.
Surrender to life. Surrender to existence itself. If the old habits or compulsive behaviour comes and grip you again. You witness it and detach yourself from it. With each attack they will have less and less grip over you providing you watch yourself consciously and with full awareness.
Like reminding yourself to breathe normally again. Like reminding yourself that this too shall come to pass. Like reminding yourself that these are only mind games and have no hold on you.
Be in the present. Be in the now fully ... wholly. Give it your 100%. Whatever you do now is the most important thing at the moment. Whoever you are with now is the most important person at the moment. No thoughts, only feeling and action. Thoughts hinders and are truly not necessary in higher levels of inward travel.
Travel inward to the bottom of your ocean. Where the waves on the surface cannot affect and touch you. Deep down in your ocean bed, it is still, centred and harmonious. Bring the harmony out and flow with nature. Flow and harmonise with the moment and watch how you can manifest things/ideas out of thin air as in co-creating.
Eternity is in the now. Face all evil gently and knowingly thank them for now they are your teachers. They say "Wrong way ... go back" and they wake you up to reality. They wake you up to the imperfection and pains of the moment. Experience them. For in these imperfections, perfection is. It is such. Taking the good and the bad all willing. Accepting them all without attaching or clinging to any. For nothing lasts forever.
Respond appropriately. What was relevant then may not be relevant now. What was appropriate respond then may not be now. I am not the same person before i wrote this new paragraph ...
Life is a constant flux .... these compulsive disorders are friends and are guides for us to gently acknowledge that they are hindrances and are not necessary if we wish to make progress.
All things are friends, guides and teachers. Good or evil. God or devil. Friend or foe. We are all one. One in one existence. We are parts of the same existence. These disorders are merely to be recycled to something useful in due course.
Move to a state where there are no questions, no answers needed. Only what is ... what is happening now. Is it useful right now, in the present moment? Does it give me peace and joy of mind? Does it bring inner harmony to my nature? Can i attune to the flow of nature/event/situation at this moment?
Live and just be content, grateful right now. Not desiring only being. Then the friendliness extends to all beings and non-beings, organic and inorganic. Then there is a song in the heart, and a dance in the soul. Then laughter comes naturally and whole-heartedly.
